How to disappear completely

In a little while
I’ll be gone
The moments already passed
Yeah its gone
And I’m not here
This isn’t happening
I’m not here
I’m not here

Haven

To find that safe, and quiet place in my heart – where I’ll be able to meet You there.
I’ll be unmoved, yet certain of it all because I would know, where my confidence lies.

Should it be otherwise, it would be vanity.

The End: For Now

Today marked the end of the incessant IAs to complete since the start of the year. It’s been 7 months and 20 days, and I can’t believe that I’ve reached the End Of It All. This marks a time when I give thanks to the One who has been here through it all, and also to the people around that I could not have done this without. Thank you, and breathe for a few moments, and we’ll press on, again.

PS: To those who text me and wished me the best for IOC, I’m sorry I didn’t reply cause’ I was in the tense zone! Either way thank you very very very much for these messages

The only 3 options I’d consider.

1. To place our heart in our work
2. Find a reason to smile
3. Detach the mind and the heart

I settle for nothing less.

Haven’t had a coherent one, in a while

Vanity
the quality of being worthless and futile

Solomon was a wise man, he had everything – literally – from wealth, to women and wisdom.
Yet, we still lack something – aren’t we lacking something all the time?

I am learning to be satisfied, with my lot, with my being, with whatever I’ve been blessed with. It’s tiring to compare, to hope that you were some place better: yet I forget that I’m already blessed, that I’ve never been deserving, and that it’s always been Grace that has been keeping me (ironically) away, and now back to Him.

We learn to be satisfied, because He is sufficient, in all things.
And I am moved, at such a thought, strange what a Mocha Latte can do to you.

This has got to exist II

Perfection
A condition, state or quality of being free or as free as possible from all defects and flaws

This has got to exist I

Idyllic
(Esp. of Time and Place) Extremely happy, peaceful, or picturesque

FML FML FML

I GOT TO FREAKING RE-PRINT MY EE AGAIN. I REALISED A FOOTNOTING ERROR. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF. A CONSOLATION THOUGH, AT LEAST I WON’T BEAT MYSELF UP OVER LOSING STUPID MARKS! LETS PRAY AND HOPE THAT SHE HASN’T SHIPPED IT YET. IF NOT I’LL BE EXTREMELY UPSET. EXTREMELY. PLEASE NO WILL AND MUST CALL MDM LATER. BAD FEELINGS ARE GOOD, THEY ALLOW ME TO REALISE MY FOLLY AND HOPEFULLY SAVE MY ASS.

Getaway

CLUB MED, BINTAN SOUNDS JOLLY AWESOME. I DON’T SAY THIS VERY OFTEN AS I SHOULD, BUT THANK YOU FOR ANSWERING MY STUPID PHONE CALLS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT IOC IS COMING UP AND I THINK IT’S TIME TO UP THE GAME AND FINISH THE EXTRACTS QUICKLY, DON’T GIVE UP NOW JOYCE, YOU CAN’T. DANCE FOA IN A FEW HOURS, I MISS THE STAGE ALREADY. A TINGE OF REGRET THAT I DIDN’T DANCE CERTAIN ITEMS. I ALWAYS DO THIS TO MYSELF, DOING THINGS I REGRET FOR STUPID ACADEMIC MATTERS LIKE MEETING EE DEADLINES AND I MISSED BLOCKING. I DO MISS THE STAGE, THE LIGHTS, THE AUDIENCE. ST LUCIA SOUNDS GOOD, FREE FOOD AND BOOZE, TOTALLY UP FOR IT TOO. MY EYE INFECTION IS NEARLY GONE BUT IT FEELS MILDLY SORE A BIT AROUND MY EYE. DANIEL IS ASKING ME WHETHER I’M BUYING STUFF BUT NO I AM BLOGGING, HENRY IS LOOKING EXTREMELY INCREDULOUS AND THEY ARE PLAYING CRICKET AGAIN. NEW CLASS SPORT. I NEED TO CHARGE MY PHONE. I LOVE PED GOSSIP. ARIEL BELIEVES SHE IS HOT STUFF. ADWYN AGREES!

Vertigo

I’VE BEEN JUMPING FROM THE TOPS OF BUILDINGS
FOR THE THRILL OF THE FALL
IGNORING SOUND ADVICE
AND ANY THOUGHT OF CONSEQUENCE
MY BONES ARE SHATTERED
MY PRIDE IS SHATTERED
AND IN THE MIDST OF THIS SELF-INFLICTED PAIN
I CAN SEE MY BEAUTIFUL RESCUE.