Our Cross to Bear

We all have our Crosses to bear. It is such that our human nature is plagued with sin and there are problems we face in our lives. The problem lies with sin, of course. But the greater problem that arises is self-righteousness. It’s when we start comparing on the concept of “who has more sin” that we start judging and placing ourselves on a higher plane than others. We are all, in some ways, flawed. We sin, like everyone else. But sometimes we’re just too blinded by our pride and the preconcevied notions in society to see that.

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How is your heart?

during my worst times
on the park benches
in the jails
or living with
whores
I always had this certain
contentment-
I wouldn’t call it
happiness-
it was more of an inner
balance
that settled for
whatever was occuring
and it helped in the
factories
and when relationships
went wrong
with the
girls.
it helped
through the
wars and the
hangovers
the backalley fights
the
hospitals.
to awaken in a cheap room
in a strange city and
pull up the shade-
this was the craziest kind of
contentment

and to walk across the floor
to an old dresser with a
cracked mirror-
see myself, ugly,
grinning at it all.
what matters most is
how well you
walk through the
fire.

Smiles

Lately the smiles have been a bit like this.

(I need to find time for Larrry therapy dammit)

Order in the Chaos of events

This claim is irrelevant to me because there is no need at all for me to do so. I’d very much like to float around in nothingness for a while.

Self-Actualization

Just a note to all… I’m actually quite okay with everything that’s happening now! It’s just that the amount of work that has to be reaccomplished at the moment is daunting… But I’m alive, very much so. Thanks for all the encouragement

All I need now is a moment of self-actualization.

Falling/Dropping

Today’s one of those days where I wonder what the hell I’m doing in IB.
And every single bit of my assignments seem to be falling apart.

Stubborn

There’s this general reluctance to start on my EE. It’s painful to press the restart button all over again (I know how windows users feel).

Surprises

The enjoyment of eating Kinder Joy or Kinder Surprise comes from the toy and not knowing what to expect. I guess the only difference is that we know that the surprise is going to be awesome nonetheless, and it’s just what we’re going to get that would make the difference.

Today was jam packed with surprises. (three in fact) and well SYF was one of them. Looks like the track record wasn’t tainted after all! haha. I think I had a lot of unexpected fun on stage to be frank. Haven’t felt that way in a long time since Sec 4. I guess… I might miss dance after all.

The other two surprises were just exciting. No one’s complaining!

Mind

And there are many many many times that your head loses, and your heart ultimately wins. I can’t decide if that’s a good thing or not.